a response from the woman with college-debt, a painful past, & ten tattoos

This blog is written in response to this blog titled Men Prefer Debt-Free Virgins Without Tattoos that is making its rounds all over Christian social media circles. Please read it first for context. This is how it begins: Do you know how much more attractive debt-free virgins (without tattoos) are to young men? Unfortunately, there…

growing pains: just catching up

I’ve been struggling to write these past few months – having too much bursting at the seams and too little to say all at once. Today, I’m just a little closer to a full expression of this new season… this new life that God has given me. Today, I’m just getting started. So, I’ve been…

raw sessions: a bruised reed and a smoldering wick

I haven’t done a self-reflection in a while, and with the weather being wonky and with some extra time, I decided to gnaw on the past couple of months. “Change” and “transition” have been the two key words in this season of mine, and it has been altogether exciting and terrifying. Pieces of my life…

spring

***When I wrote this time last year, I hardly had remembered that it was Easter at all. This year, I have been anticipating Easter for weeks on end, preparing for it and joyously awaiting its arrival. Well here it is, and here are my raw, naively happy thoughts about Easter, Jesus, spring, and life. It’s…

my spring song is coming

Do you hear its beat? Do you feel that bass? Here it comes with the warm breeze that brushes past my cheek. What are the lyrics this time? Something to do with satisfaction contentment peace But there is still more to come, I can feel it. I am still wrapping up my winter song, it…

tetelestai

It has taken me months to get to an understanding that I can hardly grasp. Months, to be able to explain why I can have joy in the midst of an ocean of uncertainty and heartache. Around and around I go with my self-doubt and insecurity, yet I am reminded of truth everyday. You are…

a place to lay my head

I have very few vivid memories in my life, but possibly one of the most defining moments that I will never forget was when God called me to attend UC Merced for college. This story starts with a feeling many Central Valley natives are familiar with… a burning desire to leave the second they get…

a word for death

Death, you have no place here.  Not in my flesh, not in my spirit. Death, you try and you try but you will never win. You’ve been my companion since birth, eating away at me with each passing minute. You’re a friend to the clock, you work hand-in-hand, never informing me of your coming. You…

raw sessions: holiday blues

The reality is that I’ve come to flinch away from the holiday seasons. They’re always reminders of sadder times for me. They’re reflections of the things people have lost. The happiness that is elevated for so many other people is a stark contrast to the deep melancholy that has filled my heart in this season….

my winter song

It’s not truly winter yet, but my winter season has already come in full force. It looks like a lone key sitting, returned, on my dining room table.  It smells like home-cooked Filipino food that greets me when I go home. It feels like my cat who nestles at my side as I fall asleep….