Dear 2016,

You. Sucked. Like really, everything that happened this year… please, enough is enough. 2016, you handed me some of the hardest 6 months of my life, but you also brought me sweetness and joy unlike I could have ever envisioned for myself. I was the loneliest I had ever been, I was the angriest, the…

missing England

It could be the holiday blues. It could also be the fact that friends left for home this past weekend… It could just be that England really left a mark on my heart… But I miss England. I spent a good portion of my evening yesterday watching videos and scrolling through photos of my 2…

fall 2016

My fall semester of my last year as an undergraduate at UCM is over. Done. Finito. The moment I turned in my last paper I felt the air rush out of my lungs as a weight lifted off my shoulders. I was done with this semester. After that I felt the exhaustion hit me and…

core issues

I just want to be loved. Every insecurity I have, every time I feel jealous, every fear that clouds my vision… my want to be loved is the root of it all. The fact of the matter is I am scared and I am scarred. As long as I can remember, people have left me….

fear, again

Dear Fear, Hello friend it’s good to see you again. You always come unexpectedly, just when I thought you were gone. Today you came in the form of twinges of sadness as I said goodbye to my friends who were going home for the Thanksgiving holiday. Today, you greeted me at the door as I walked into a completely empty…

kindred spirits

surround yourselves with people who will walk through life with you. who will listen carefully when your heart is breaking, who will reassure you that your heart is important when you agonize about the same thing for the hundredth time. find people who will share music with you, who will send you funny memes, and…

ladder rung

I don’t know what you see when you look at me, but when I look in the mirror I see a girl who has no idea what she’s doing. I see a girl who spends most of her hours trying her best to care for others, but still continues to feel a little hollow on…